Tuesday, March 6, 2018

Psalm 42 and 43

Read the two Psalms 42 and 43 then come back, i will wait for you, they are not that long go ahead...

OK, ready to go on with further talking about it?
I hope so, i know I am.
This morning's email devotional from Insight for Today with Chuck Swindoll was on these two Psalms. He was writing on his "Churning place" you know the one. That place in your body usually the stomach or head that starts to show signs of turmoil or in my case anxiety.
My place is the stomach and head they are two in one those places, because when I start to get stressed I eat, when I eat it is not the good foods, no it is the bad sugar filled or salty fatty foods that is known as "comfort foods". Then after I eat I think I will feel better but I don't my head starts hurting due to high blood sugars, I am a diabetic.

He listed all the situations that can start this downward spiral into "The Churning place" like:

  • Bad News
  • Unpaid bills 
  • Personal conflict
  • unresolved sin
There were more to the list but I am going to choose these out of the list because they resonate with my life thus far in my 46 years of life. 

I too love the Psalms because Like David have had a mixture of emotions that he jotted down in songs, that's what Psalms are a book of songs and i find it fulfilling to read these when I am in need to hear from someone who has walked in my shoes. 
In this Psalm the part that he wrote:

Why are you in despair, O my soul?
And why have you become disturbed within me?
Hope in God, for i shall again praise Him?

You can find that phrase in Ch. 42: 5, 11 and Psalm 43:5

It was important enough to have it sung three times in these 2 Psalms. 
Another that caught my eye is this one written twice in Ch. 42:9 and 43: 2:

Why do I go (about) mourning
Because of the oppression of the enemy?

It is a question that I have asked several times, in different wordings of course. I ask God and or myself, why am i like this, why can I forget the past and the hurts and the trials and the temptations and just move forward. 
I argue that I am a new man in Christ at salvation the old man is dead and gone buried, but then I persist, it seems at times that the old man who i know should be dead, comes back like a zombie reanimated in the horror movies and Today's favorite, "The Walking Dead".
In the book of Romans that comes to mind frequently when I ask this persistent question:



Romans 7:22-24 For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death?

So this tells me that I need to understand that I am human caught in the life or sin due to sin being introduced to the world through Adam, in  The book of Genesis. Paul wrote in this book what we need to hear and remember that we are not alone, just as David did in the Psalms.


Paul previously said, "15 For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. 16 Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. 17 So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. 18 For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.

Wait a minute in 1 Peter chapter 2 He(Peter) urges us to "abstain from the passions of the flesh". How can we do this?

Let us go to Ephesians 6: 10-20
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm.  Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the 
word of God, 
praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. 

To that end, keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints, and also for me, that words may be given to me in opening my mouth boldly to proclaim the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains, that I may declare it boldly, as I ought to speak.

So what are these:
  • The Belt of Truth
  • Breastplate of righteousness
  • Shoes of steadiness
  • Shield of Faith
  • Helmet of Salvation
  • Sword of the Spirit
Verse 17 tells us what the Sword of the Spirit is It is The Word of God. We will see The Lord Himself using the Sword in Revelation 2 in the letter to the Church of Pergamum, read it later its proves that His word is like a two-edged sword sharp to sever sin from man for good.

But whatever is the 
Belt of Truth? 
Breastplate of Righteousness
Shoes of steadiness
Shield of Faith
Helmet of Salvation
Paul used the Armour of a Roman soldier to use as an example
The Belt held things together in the abdomen area and held the soldiers sword
the Breastplate to a soldier protects there heart and ribs from any weapons used against them, Paul used this analogy to remind his readers that we too are protected by God's righteousness by taking on the character of Christ, as we are growing in Christ
Shoes of steadiness kept the Roman from being unable to plant his feet rightly during battle or even in his daily walk. Paul is telling us to stand firm in Christ in our daily walk as well
Shield of Faith - A Romans shield was large enough to protect his whole body. They would dip their shield in water to protect them from fiery darts of the enemy that were meant to cause harm or even death. We can see today that our shield as Children of God is the Holy Spirit.
Helmet - To protect the head of a soldier is a symbol of Salvation for now and the Hope that is to come when the final battle is won by Jesus Christ and the His Sword of The Spirit.

This analogy can be helpful to remember daily, If we can picture a Soldier with his Full Armour on, it will protect that soldier through battle, but unlike that metal of armour, Gods Full Armour that he tells us to put on is unable to decay, it will never fall away or be burned up it is a protection for us forever.

So when we read or feel like this:
Why do I go (about) mourning
Because of the oppression of the enemy?
or


Why are you in despair, O my soul?
And why have you become disturbed within me?

Remember to put on the Full armour of God and to:

"Hope in God, for i shall again praise Him?"









Monday, March 5, 2018

OFF THE CHARTS!!!

had my Drs. appointment about my blood work. My blood sugar and cholesterol and triglycerides are literally off the charts. SO I am going to have to start with a boat load of meds.  At my age mid 40's its time for me to chill out on the foods I like to eat daily. So no more ice cream daily. Yeah, I am going to start off slow. and well we will have to stop the donuts as well...
and the jelly beans...
and chips...
and Mike's hard lemonades...
and pizza three times a week...
and etc.

Wow!!!
I am blessed to be still alive
Thank You Lord for protecting me against total kidney shut down and blood sugar coma and etc.

Sunday, March 4, 2018

I know what love is

In the movie Forrest Gump, After watching TV, Jenny tells Forrest that she is going up to sleep, He suddenly gets up and followers her to the stairs and asks her to marry him, she says no, he finally says, "I may not be a smart man, but I know what love is".

Anytime i am in a conversation, there is always one or more person/s that seem to surprised that I am able to handle difficult situations or conversations and actually make sense.
It is quite annoying for me to as a person that has put in a lot of time and effort to be well educated, even if my blogging skills do not show that at times, let's face it my english typing is really messed up, and I need to get more verse at making skillful sentences. (Sidenote: when I am teaching of trying to explain myself I use a roundabout way of getting to my point. Because in my head there are so many ways I have discovered a truth, and I feel like i need to explain the entire route that it took for me to learn something.)

This action of over telling a story or explanation, may contribute to others thinking i am stupid or slow, like Forrest here.

Like Forrest although is slow he knows that he loves Jenny and as the movie progresses he shows his love to the Dying Jenny and even unto death and afterword.

I to know what love is. Jesus on the cross dying for my sins. Dying for the sins of those who oppose me and think negatively of me, thinking that I am just really good at memorization and the things I say is brought up out of my mind like a lost file in the internet decks, or whatever they may think.

that is not how my mind works, I do not look for times and ways to speak my mind, if it was up to me I would NEVER speak out in public I am ultimately an introvert that wants to hide in the background and let anyone and everyone else talk about a subject. But there is a gnawing at my mind, heart and soul, that if I do not speak my mind I will blow up, mentally and feel like a looser for not taking the initiative and speak my mind.

its something within me something alien to who I am that must, MUST teach, must talk, must tell the truth. It is the Holy Spirit, not me.

I know what love is, it is when you know that something is going to happen and it ain't any good for you or someone around you, who is about to get hit with a door or something and you yell, "LOOK OUT!!!" and they are saved from a damaging blow.

I know what love is, its telling a person that they are going down a wrong path, spiritually, knowing that if they continue to worship an evil and false faith they will die and go to hell.

I know what Love is.
It is when you would do anything,
ANYTHING
To save a person
From Drowning
From WAlking into distruction
From Living foolishly
From Driving down the wrong way on a one way street

In know what Love is...
Love is what PAul wrote to the Corinthians
 Love is patient
 Love is Kind... (1 Corinthians 13)

But True love is from God.
Even when we are faced with elongated, stares
When everything we do is scrutinized, twisted
When we are made to look stupid, so they can ultimately look like the star of the faction
We still love like God loved us.
we must  "Be watchful, stand firm in the faith, act like men, be strong. Let all that you do be done in love." 1 Corinthians 16:13-14

Why?

John 13: 34-35 Jesus says, "A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another. By this all people will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.”

Love all people even when it hurts.

My case worker said something to me Friday.

I am starting to believe what she told me Friday, “maybe it’s them!”. In other words maybe these elongated faces are real? You know the ones. Those faces that seem to look like the face from the scream painting? When I try to explain my mental health issues to people it seems like they are just trying to shut me up.

What She said just maybe true. 

You see, in my line of ‘work’ I have to make public speeches and have done so for many many years. While speaking it seems as though some people in the audience will be yawning and stretching and just trying to pay attention but the there are those who actually sit there with their arms crossed and mouths gaping and spittle dripping off the side of the mouth… sorry I added that last part.

They seem like the scream, i have seen this multiple times. Thinking it was my vivid imagination, i would lock onto these people, these faces, making me feel like i am talking to long, even if it had only been five to ten minutes.

But those looks are there, this case worker told me she has seen it as well, and it’s not my fault. It’s not the speakers fault for the audience to be assholes, it’s human nature. When we are called to speak, speak your mind freely, with power and 'umph'. Do the job you have been called to do and know that with every one of those scream faces there are those out there that is actually listening, actually paying attention to what you are saying, that goes for the written word on blogs.