Why me?

I have colon problems like man men my age. Last night was a very bad night for me trip after trip to the bathroom followed by an accident that many in my position knows both bathrooms were busy and there it goes, loose bowel. As I was standing there in tears from embarrassment and tears from the pain I asked out loud not really wanting to believe who I was really asking I asked in anger, "Why Me?"

Through a sequence of events this morning starting with an email from my pastor about something totally different, 'Noetic effects of the fall from Albert Mohler'. So I looked this up and it was a question from this past weekends radio show of Al Mohler. I studied into it and then went to www.desiringgod.com to look for a sermon that Al Mohler gave but stopped when I saw another video on the sight that caught my eye. It is a Speaker Panel at the 2010 Desiring God conference. I love watching these because ti shows another side of pastors talking to each other and in front of lay people like me, its cool. I was watching and thinking back at last nights events and my burning question and John Piper says the following:


I would also say that we leaders here believe in a certain vision of God’s sovereign grace. There’s not a thing in you or me that inclined God to chose you for himself. It is totally free. This is our theology: unconditional election, regeneration, propitiation. Our theology is meant to flatten us so that no one would boast in the presence of God. Let him who boasts, boast in the Lord. The new Calvinism is about smashing human pride and getting glory for God. The cross is good news showing how much I’m loved and that it’s free. He’s going to get you a theology with him so massively at the center that you won’t even think of being there.

found here: http://www.desiringgod.org/conference-messages/speaker-panel-with-piper-anyabwile-chan-and-mohler

To say the least I have my answer and I am humbled. Humbled and ashamed for not remembering what I have gone through before in my life that has been filled with events like the one last night and many other times. I am also ashamed because this is not the first time I have been told this or heard this, my mom and dad told me several times that God has a way to slow us down and say hey what's really going on here and consider what we have been missing. And mom would always and still does today that the answer is always the same, GOD!

Why am I still sick? -- God

Why am I still here and not dead? -- God

What is my answer for my life's troubles in the past and present?

GOD!

He is always the Answer.

AMEN!